If your community isn’t working for Islam’s Converts, it isn’t working for Allah’s Deen. You need to wake up before you meet Allah.

Under the sparse Islamophobia, Muslims suddenly became “champions of social justice”, except NOT REALLY.

They’ve never examined the state of their INTERNAL minorities. If you’re from Pakistan or the Middle East, you HAVE a community. If you’re a Black Muslim from anywhere, you’re definitely marginalized. But if you’re a White, Latino, or Oriental Convert — fuck you. You’ve got nothing. In 40 years, no one in this God-forsaken community has ever investigated or even asked “how are these tiny minorities doing”? Cause when you’re comfy, you don’t really give a shit. If they’d investigated, they would’ve known the reasons they lose 90% of the Converts.

There’s a ruling from Imam an-Nawawi that would declare every Muslim in the US a Kafir. The reason: institutionally barring people from entering Islam and actually living in Islam. It’s an atrocity against Islam and humanity they won’t discover until they’re drowning in Jehannum. That includes our deluded “imams”. Those people who live the comfiest lives of anyone in the community, completely detached from reality.

Wanna hear about a minority? CAUCASIAN MALE CONVERT MUSLIM. The tiniest minority on earth, other than perhaps Native American and Eskimo Muslims.

*Maybe* 20 of us in DFW, a community of 200K+ Muslims, and so spread-out we only see each other once every 3 years. We have no community, no masjid, no bullshit “imam”, no support, no program, no plan. Just a drowning and forgotten demographic that exists in no-one’s thoughts. I was the first one here. I’ve seen the 90% of Converts that disappears over time. I’ve seen the Convert Sister commit suicide in our midst. I’ve seen the Convert women crying about living with their fucked-up “muslim” husbands, while others are so content with themselves, they utterly ignore the realities of their own Convert neighbors. I’ve seen the Convert Brother who, in ’97, was shot twice in the back of the head, killed working some bullshit $5/hour job for a greedy Arab bastard.

This situation is beyond apartheid: it’s a total erasure

For 4 years, I hosted an online discussion group for Converts Only, where over 300 Converts could speak openly about their situations.  For every happy case in which someone was enjoying their discoveries in Islam, there was another case:

  • someone whose marriage was an absolute horror
  • someone who needed to get married, but couldn’t, sometimes for years or over a decade
  • someone being ignored and forgotten at the local masjid
  • someone being harassed for their clothing or tattoos
  • someone seeking clarity and unable to find it
  • someone providing a needed solution for the community, and unable to get community support/funding

I took my findings to the local masajid: specifically, Dar-el-Eman and MIC in Arlington, TX, the Islamic Center of Irving, and IANT in Richardson.  In all cases, the local Converts were in agreement with the need to raise awareness of the problems in the Convert community.  AND IN ALL CASES, WE WERE MARGINALIZED AND SHUT DOWN !

Dar-el-Eman actually stopped us from having a program in the back room of the masjid.

IANT wanted to force us to have only a nominal “New Muslim Program” that provided nothing for real needs of Converts.

And the Islamic Center of Irving, after several meetings with the Reverts and Da’wah committees, downgraded our pleas for Mercy and Help by handing the issue over to a 25-year-old from India.  THIS IS HOW YOU ERASE PEOPLE.  The obvious question: what the fuck does a 25-year-old Indian boy know about the needs of American Converts?  Especially when there’s a Convert in the room who has been a Muslim Convert longer than the Indian boy has even lived on earth.

It was over 2 years ago that I completely gave-up on ICI.  With Imam Zia’s help, I recently went to ICI for a couple of important presentations to the community.  This is a masjid that boasts that roughly 400 people have recited Shahadah due to their “programs”. Yet, they also admit they have lost 95% of their Converts.  When I was there, no Converts were present, other than one Brother sitting at the back of the prayer hall.

Here are the claims made by ICI’s website:


Here’s how I describe these “programs”: they are FOR DISPLAY PURPOSES ONLY.  The website itself even says so: “to be the minaret of Islam in America by promoting its genuine image“. You can’t get more specific than that.

So, in a private discussion, someone working inside the organization admits they lost 95% of their Converts.  Yet, in all the years, they never considered going beyond their superficial “programs”, going beyond “promoting its genuine image”.  The needs of Converts are REAL NEEDS: your “Sister’s Circle” and “Islam 101 class” will never address REAL NEEDS.

I went home with the Convert Brother sitting at the back of the prayer hall.  We talked for over 2 hours.  He told me that after after working in the Irving community more than 5 years, he had given up. Given up on the masjid, given up on the “community”, and nearly given up his life:  he had been contemplating suicide.

THIS IS REAL.  This is NOT for display purposes only.  This is the truth of the “muslim community” that erases the Converts seeking Allah’s Deen, a Deen that doesn’t require a “genuine image”.  A Deen that is about real life, of real human beings, under real Islam.  An Islam that doesn’t exist in the “muslim community”.  Not for Converts.

I’ve tried to count the Converts I’ve known who gave-up on the “community”.  I can’t count them.  All I know is the vast majority of Converts give-up on the “community”.  For display purposes only doesn’t work for us. The 25-year-old Indian boy doesn’t work for us.  Being blocked by your Goddamn bureaucracy of useful idiots doesn’t work for us.

I’ll soon be dead.  I’ve endured all a human being can endure.  30 years, I’ve lived as a member of the tiniest minority in the world, in a community that doesn’t even care if I exist or not.  A community in which I, in fact, do not exist.  I have been systematically erased. And human beings were not designed by Allah to actually live without human beings.  30 years of pain.  30 years of destruction.  30 years of an impossible situation that defies all logic, defies any truth about human needs, which is what REAL Islam is actually for.  I’ve reached my limit and gone well beyond the limits of most humans.  If you think I’m wrong or exaggerating, enlighten me.  Present me with the True Story of the Human Being who Lived without Human Beings.  That story doesn’t exist, which is why my own existence is coming to an end.  I came, I saw, I endured, and I witnessed.  The fact that I don’t exist in your Pakistani or Arab “muslim community” is YOUR problem. You will be confronted with that when your Hisaab is thrown in your face in the Akhira, and so many uncounted and erased Converts will stand as witness against you.

Here’s to you, oh superficial, negligent, and unconcerned “muslims”. YOU who made Islam impossible for 90% of the Converts. YOU who believe, like the Jew, that the Fire of Allah will never touch you.  YOU who will be sitting comfy on your couch tonight, enjoying a fine meal.

خُذُوهُ فَاعْتِلُوهُ إِلَىٰ سَوَاءِ الْجَحِيمِ

[It will be commanded], “Seize him and drag him into the midst of the Hellfire,


ثُمَّ صُبُّوا فَوْقَ رَأْسِهِ مِنْ عَذَابِ الْحَمِيمِ

Then pour over his head from the torment of scalding water.”


ذُقْ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ الْعَزِيزُ الْكَرِيمُ

 “Taste this ! Indeed, you are the honored, the noble!


إِنَّ هَٰذَا مَا كُنتُم بِهِ تَمْتَرُونَ

Indeed, this is what you used to deny.”

Making Islam unattainable/impossible is the work of Shaytaan.  There is no such thing as a Shaytaan living in Jennah.  There IS such a thing as human beings who only awaken to their crimes once they land in the Fire.  So, don’t sit there thinking “Oh, no, this will never happen.  I will never burn in the fire.”  That’s the delusional thought of countless human being that WILL BURN IN THE FIRE.
“Oh, but I’m in the masjid every day.  Surely, Allah will love me.”  The truth is that your “masjid” has made Islam impossible for human beings seeking Allah’s Deen. Your “masjid” has done the work of Shaytaan. Many Converts will be witnesses against your “masjid” when we all meet Allah. And your bureaucracies of useful idiots will be put on trial.  When DISPLAY PURPOSES ONLY won’t work for you.