If you are from Pakistan, imagine that you live in a community of 300,000 people, with 20,000 Muslims, but you were THE ONLY ONE FROM PAKISTAN.

If you are from the Middle East, imagine that you live in a community of 300,000 people, with 20,000 Muslims, but you were THE ONLY ONE FROM THE MIDDLE EAST.

In Arlington, TX, there are 300,000 people and 20,000 Muslims.  I AM THE ONLY WHITE MALE MUSLIM HERE !  I have no community. I have no society. I have no family, no tribe.  I am completely ALONE in this world, and have been ALONE for 30 years.

Imagine that at the age of 20, you moved to Mongolia.  You do not speak the language, share the culture, have common education, or see the world in the same way.  You are the ONLY ONE.  They do not think the way you think.  In fact, after spending time married to one of them, you find you are incompatible.  You could not find a way to even communicate with your own spouse.

That’s my experience in life, for 30 years now, among Muslims.

Obviously, since I AM a human being, there’s NO POSSIBLE WAY I CAN LIVE LIKE THIS.  How long could you survive in Mongolia, alone?  How long would you stay in America if you didn’t have a spouse, family, and a community here?

How would you earn a living without other people?

How would you get married without other people like you?

How could you ever feel any happiness?

How could you ever feel anything but loneliness?

How would you function, feeling nothing but loneliness, and never feeling any happiness?

How long would your mind tolerate such conditions?

Have you ever heard of depression?



What about SUICIDAL DEPRESSION?  Have you ever heard of this?

How would you earn a living, get married, or want to live…when you have SUICIDAL DEPRESSION THAT NEVER GOES AWAY AND YOU CAN’T GET RID OF IT


Living as a Muslim DESTROYED my life.  Why? Allah never created human beings to be alone.  We are socially dependent.

And I’m not the only one.  The Muslim community loses 90% of the Converts.  And nobody even notices.

When I developed my programs, the most advanced programs in the United States, I was solving 2 problems:

  1. providing needed solutions for the Muslim community, so we can progress in many areas where we currently fail
  2. providing a WAY FOR ME TO FINALLY HAVE A PLACE IN THE COMMUNITY.  After 30 years of having no community.

I have done my part:  I have developed solutions that solve my problem, and help my community.

Please do your part, as a Muslim, and find a way to make this work.

مِنْ أَجْلِ ذَٰلِكَ كَتَبْنَا عَلَىٰ بَنِي إِسْرَائِيلَ أَنَّهُ مَن قَتَلَ نَفْسًا بِغَيْرِ نَفْسٍ أَوْ فَسَادٍ فِي الْأَرْضِ فَكَأَنَّمَا قَتَلَ النَّاسَ جَمِيعًا وَمَنْ أَحْيَاهَا فَكَأَنَّمَا أَحْيَا النَّاسَ جَمِيعًا

لاَ يُؤْمِنُ أَحَدُكُمْ حَتَّى يُحِبَّ لأَخِيهِ مَا يُحِبُّ لِنَفْسِهِ

قَدِمَ عَبْدُ الرَّحْمَنِ بْنُ عَوْفٍ الْمَدِينَةَ فَآخَى النَّبِيُّ صلى الله عليه وسلم بَيْنَهُ وَبَيْنَ سَعْدِ بْنِ الرَّبِيعِ الأَنْصَارِيِّ، وَكَانَ سَعْدٌ ذَا غِنًى، فَقَالَ لِعَبْدِ الرَّحْمَنِ أُقَاسِمُكَ مَالِي نِصْفَيْنِ، وَأُزَوِّجُكَ